Getting Married....

Getting married...Marriage, Shaadi...I always used to get uber excited even with the thought of getting married and becoming a bride...you know this whole thing about marriage....Shopping, parlor visits, honey moon and stuff....It used to make me jump with the joy!!! But now..when i know i will be getting married within a year or so...am not quite liking the feeling..No its not that am not excited or happy..its just that now am scared!! Now when i know that i would no more be the pampered daughter of my Dad..who has a bunch of teddy bears in her room..and who dresses her teddies everyday...;) (Yes i love all my teddies to that extent), now i can't fight with my mother on cooking Tinda, Ghiiya and Tori.., now i would not be able to sleep till 12 Noon on Sundays., and there are so many other things which i would have to leave behind.


From past 2 months now, my Dad gives me one hour lecture everyday, explaining me the duties of a wife and a daughter in law...Am extremely thankful to him, but then why do i have to change myself?...Why can't I be the same Harleen after getting married?? I understand that my duties and responsibilities will increase but why I must stop laughing loudly??( My Dad doesn't likes it when i laugh loudly) ... :(

In some time I would have to leave my home, I would have to vacant my room...OUCH!!!! (the feeling hurts)...Will i be able to adjust in a new place?? Will my in laws like me? Will my fiance's bhua's daughter's son like me?? There are so many apprehensions surrounding me...Getting Married is not just about getting married to the person you love..its also about getting married to a new family altogether...there would be so many expectations...Will I be able to deliver??


Am scared!!